{13}{68}the problem with being a resident is...
{72}{128}you feel crazy all the time.
{176}{246}You haven't slept in years.
{443}{532}you spend every day around people in massive crisis.
{552}{608}You lose your ability to judge what's normal...
{612}{662}move your crap off the floor before this thing eats it!
{666}{740}O-okay. Okay, okay, okay.
{759}{829}In yourself or anyone else.
{855}{937}And yet people arconstantly asking|you to tell them how they're doing.
{941}{988}How the hell are you supposed to know?
{993}{1041}Eggs good?
{1076}{1105}The baby didn't like the breakfast.
{1109}{1166}All right, into the can. Come on.
{1171}{1224}You don't even know how you're doing.
{1242}{1328}we had our first honest conversation about|your feelings, and now you want to leave.
{1332}{1380}That timing doesn't strike you as strange?
{1384}{1401}No!
{1405}{1430}And I'm still firing you.
{1434}{1457}No, you're quitting.
{1461}{1481}No, I'm not quitting.
{1485}{1515}I don't quit things.
{1519}{1544}Well, actually, you do.
{1548}{1576}Your mother quit your father.
{1580}{1606}Your father quit you.
{1610}{1636}You quit your boyfriend.
{1640}{1693}And if I read your hospital chart correctly
{1697}{1780}you quit your life momentarily on|a couple of occasions. You quit.
{1784}{1819}It's what you know how to do.
{1823}{1870}Now you're really fired.
{1920}{1963}Now we're getting somewhere.
{1967}{2006}And I want you to handle all my consults.
{2010}{2046}Anything you can do without me, do it.
{2050}{2079}And book some time in the robotics lab.
{2083}{2109}I want to give him a tour.
{2113}{2146}Hahn, walter tapley's coming in today.
{2150}{2203}Do we have anything special that he can scrub in on?
{2207}{2247}Walter tapley is coming here?
{2251}{2287}The chief was his student.
{2291}{2355}You studied at the right hand of god?
{2359}{2411}We need something impressive.
{2415}{2478}I will stab someone in the chest if I have to.
{2482}{2532}o'malley, get boyer ready for his C.T.
{2536}{2558}And prep my lap chole.
{2562}{2594}I need to be outta that O.R. By 10:00.
{2598}{2641}Hahn, plan to be free at 10:00.
{2645}{2689}O'malley, did patricia say I had any messages?
{2693}{2717}Yeah, she said...
{2752}{2880}she said to tell you that your wife hadn't called in|the 20 minutes since you last asked if your wife called.
{2887}{2924}All right.
{2989}{3046}I'm very optimistic about this new viral cocktail.
{3050}{3107}Adding in I.L. -2 should make a very big difference.
{3111}{3131}We're close.
{3135}{3173}We're gonna open this bottle of champagne soon.
{3177}{3213}I know.
{3225}{3278}- You okay? - I'm fine.
{3283}{3334}Listen, clinical trials can be a grind.
{3338}{3392}If this is getting to you, I can do this one on my own.
{3396}{3468}I'm not a quitter. I don't need you|to rescue me. Let's just do this.
{3472}{3512}because waiting is a bad idea.
{3517}{3549}I mean, we're talking about your health.
{3553}{3597}dr. Shepherd can say no if it's such a problem.
{3601}{3637}What am I saying no to?
{3641}{3716}Is there any way you could push|back the surgery a few hours?
{3720}{3763}My boyfriend's flight was nceled.
{3767}{3790}I want him to be here.
{3794}{3849}Greta. He has some questions.
{3853}{3881}He's so smart about this stuff.
{3885}{3912}I don't even know what to ask.
{3916}{3959}Are you reconsidering the procedure?
{3963}{4012}Andre and I have had so little time together.
{4016}{4049}We met in january.
{4053}{4130}I mean, this treatment could kill me, right?
{4177}{4206}You have a very aggressive tumor.
{4210}{4258}Even if we don't operate, you're looking at a few months.
{4262}{4313}But I'd spend them with andre.
{4326}{4418}Do you know how precious that is,|time with the person you love?
{4422}{4444}greta, please.
{4448}{4484}I'm not saying I want to cancel.
{4488}{4540}I'm justaying I want to wait for andre.
{4544}{4583}He'll help me to decide.
{4588}{4676}- Okay, we can't wait for-- he'll be here at 3:00.
{4798}{4845}dr. Mark sloan.
{4849}{4899}I used to be a patient of his.
{4907}{4940}Rebecca?
{4953}{4982}Where have you been?
{4986}{5011}Hi, izzie.
{5015}{5077}I've--I've called you and left, like, 50 messages.
{5081}{5106}You seem kind of upset.
{5110}{5247}Well, you're not pregnant, first of all, analex has been|turning his life upside down to be your baby daddy,
{5251}{5330}and I can't tell him because of|confidentiality. So yeah, upset.
{5334}{5368}You can talk to alex about anything.
{5372}{5396}I want him involved.
{5400}{5434}And I am pregnant.
{5438}{5455}You kind of know.
{5459}{5479}Okay.
{5483}{5532}So if you're not trying to trap alex wi a fake pregnancy,
{5536}{5593}you won't mind if I do another test, just to be sure.
{5597}{5618}Trap him?
{5622}{5656}Are you out of your mind?
{5660}{5723}I'm pregnant, and that's a good|thing because I want this baby.
{5728}{5774}I've always wanted a baby.
{5787}{5835}You have a baby.
{5842}{5899}Of course I do. I mean I want another one.
{5917}{5967}Do the stupid test again. It'll be fine.
{5977}{6047}And I need to see dr. Sloan. Can you help me with that?
{6052}{6099}Yeah, I'll see what I can do.
{6116}{6161}- dr. Shepherd. - Yes.
{6197}{6235}There's no andre.
{6240}{6256}What?
{6261}{6281}She made him up.
{6285}{6311}He doesn't exist.
{6316}{6386}My sister--she is not a woman who has boyfriends, okay?
{6390}{6493}And then four months ago, she goes on a cruise|and comes back saying she's met her soul mate.
{6497}{6540}Right around the time her symptoms started?
{6545}{6600}There were no pictures, and nobody has ever seen him.
{6604}{6638}Can you talk to her?
{6643}{6703}Can you tell her we can't wait for andre?
{6708}{6764}'Cause we could be waiting a long time.
{6858}{6891}- Is tapley in there? - No.
{6896}{6936}- You're lying. - yes
{6970}{7009}- Tapley in there? - No.
{7014}{7048}- Liar. - yes
{7060}{7088}Something is wrong with her.
{7093}{7114}Oh, no, it's not. I'm fine.
{7118}{7228}She cleaned-- cleaned the apartment-- which she has no|idea how to do, so she basically just pushed dirt around.
{7233}{7249}Oh, leave her alone.
{7253}{7297}Not everybody has to be happy all the time.
{7302}{7331}That's not mental health.
{7336}{7346}That's crap.
{7350}{7412}Walter tapley's here, and she doesn't want to meet him.
{7417}{7452}Well, that's--that's bad.
{7457}{7512}You know, torres, mind your own business.
{7517}{7546}You--you need to get help.
{7550}{7582}You're killing me.
{7596}{7654}If you hang out until hahn gets|here, you might get to meet tapley.
{7659}{7705}I don't give a damn about walter tapley.
{7709}{7822}Cristina... are you in the dark place?
{7827}{7849}Yeah.
{7854}{7886}Me, too.
{7967}{7983}there she is.
{7988}{8048}dr. Erica hahn, our chief of cardiothoracic surgery.
{8053}{8097}It's an honor to meet you, dr. Tapley.
{8101}{8170}I use your modified bypass procedure all the time.
{8174}{8232}Yeah. Well, that was an afternoon well spent.
{8237}{8281}You came up with that in an afternoon?
{8285}{8316}It took him six years.
{8320}{8353}You're a killjoy, webber.
{8377}{8433}I didn't really come here for a visit.
{8449}{8555}I have aortic and mitral stenosis with tricuspid regurge.
{8560}{8662}I need a double valve replacement and tricuspid repair.
{8681}{8723}Are you sure?
{8763}{8897}charts, echos, chest x-rays-- everything you need.
{8906}{9021}I may have invented the modified|bypass, but I can't operate on mysf.
{9026}{9125}And my colleagues won't touch me|because I have chronic a-fib,
{9130}{9205}pulmonary hypertension and a clot in my left atrium.
{9209}{9277}They think if they operate, they'll kill me.
{9282}{9354}What makes you think we'll do it if your colleagues won't?
{9358}{9408}I didn't start their careers.
{9413}{9452}They can say no to me.
{9471}{9495}Webber can'T.
{9632}{9683}Grey's Anatomy|Season 4 Episode
{9698}{9742}- Absolutely not. - No hold on...
{9746}{9776}- We haven't even disc-- have you read the file?
{9780}{9839}His pulmonary arterial pressure is throughhe roof.
{9844}{9870}He's aware of the risk.
{9879}{9909}Well, in that case, fine.
{9913}{9947}I don't know what I was so worried about.
{9951}{10022}I may go down in history as the|surgeon who killed walter tapley,
{10026}{10072}but hey, at least they're writing about me?
{10076}{10108}Erica, sit down.
{10179}{10220}let me tell you a story.
{10228}{10267}- 38 years ago, when I was a young intern-- I'm sorry.
{10271}{10378}Is this gonna be a story about how you were a struggling|black med student who wanted to be a surgeon,
{10382}{10458}and no one would give you a chance,|and walter tapley gave you that chance?
{10463}{10543}He mentored you, and without him, you|wouldn't be in this hospital today?
{10548}{10562}Yes.
{10567}{10624}I'm still not gonna operate on him.
{10655}{10701}Okay, the sex--I thought that was mind-blowing myself,
{10706}{10742}but I get the impression that you had a really bad time.
{10747}{10761}What?
{10765}{10795}Why are you avoiding me?
{10799}{10845}I'm--I'm sorry. I-I lost a patient.
{10849}{10874}I'm not trying to avoid you.
{10878}{10949}So not calling me after the sex is|you being a dedicated lifesaver?
{10953}{10970}It is.
{10974}{11014}So I'll see you later?
{11081}{11114}You didn't call her?
{11118}{11182}When was the last time you called a woman after having sex?
{11188}{11220}Yeah, well, that's gonna change.
{11224}{11250}I'm turning over a new leaf.
{11254}{11276}What was wrong with the old lf?
{11280}{11303}So they called you a whore?
{11308}{11333}You're a happy guy.
{11338}{11420}Walter tapley needs a double valve replacement,|and hahn refuses to give it to him.
{11424}{11435}What's her problem?
{11439}{11479}- She thinks she's gonna kill him. - lightweight.
{11483}{11524}Since when do surgeons turn me down?
{11528}{11573}It's her choice. She's the one opening him up.
{11577}{11614}Yeah. Yeah, yeah.
{11618}{11650}Oh, oh, and another thing.
{11654}{11735}If you spend the night with a woman and call|her the next day and she doesn't call you back,
{11739}{11772}does that mean she had a lousy time,
{11776}{11828}or does that mean her answering|machine was consumed in a fire?
{11832}{11860}See, the chief calls the next day.
{11864}{11899}You don't have to call her back.
{11905}{11944}You--you jusmet this person.
{11948}{11991}It's new. It's fun. It's casual.
{11995}{12024}It's my wife.
{12043}{12076}What, do I call again?
{12083}{12117}No, another call looks desperate.
{12121}{12160}Send her an e-mail. Invite her to dinner.
{12164}{12210}Just be casual, confident.
{12214}{12243}Sexy.
{12247}{12301}I mean romantic.
{12326}{12359}Oh, o'malley.
{12363}{12387}Yes, sir.
{12391}{12423}Tapley's in 2062.
{12427}{12470}He's getting an E.K.G. And|an echo. I assigned yang.
{12474}{12518}All right. Oh, one more thing.
{12584}{12674}Look, I know I said I wouldn't use you to|get my wife back, but I am a desrate man.
{12678}{12696}Okay, lay it on me.
{12700}{12729}Draft an e-mail...
{12733}{12781}Ask her to dinner. No, no, don't ask her.
{12787}{12811}Tell her.
{12815}{12844}She likes a strong hand.
{12848}{12903}Okay, you want me to ask your wife|out on a date with a strong hand.
{12907}{12929}- Confident. - Confident.
{12933}{12954}- Casual. - Casual.
{12958}{12976}- Sexy. - sexy.
{12980}{13020}Tell her..
{13024}{13147}tell her the train is leaving the|station, and she better get on it. Yeah.
{13190}{13231}Can I talk to you about rebecca?
{13235}{13256}Busy.
{13260}{13304}Alex, I gave her a pregnancy test last week.
{13308}{13346}She's not pregnant.
{13350}{13373}I wanted to tell you.
{13377}{13401}Yeah, well, you're telling me now.
{13405}{13448}Alex, when I told her, she...
{13452}{13483}she said I was wrong.
{13487}{13545}She thinks it's some sort of|false negative, whicit isn'T.
{13549}{13597}She was puking this morning,|and her boobs are all blown up.
{13601}{13623}I ran it twice.
{13627}{13689}Well, labs are wrong all the time,|and you're wrong all the time.
{13693}{13768}How 'bout you mind your own freakin'|business and stay out of my life?
{13838}{13915}you have my chart, and I would prefer|it if you didn't because I fired you.
{13919}{13938}Can I have my chart, please?
{13942}{13999}It's not appropriate to show|up at my door unannounced.
{14003}{14038}And you didn't fire me. You quit.
{14042}{14111}So if you would like to|unquit, make an appointment.
{14146}{14174}You know..
{14206}{14255}make an appointment, grey.
{14259}{14297}It's what we do.
{14439}{14482}At the moment, no surgery's been scheduled,
{14487}{14549}so we need to focus on keeping|him stable and comfortable.
{14553}{14569}Anything he wants.
{14573}{14602}He wants a steak, kill a cow.
{14606}{14659}Karev, bedside P.F.T.S and an A.B.G.
{14663}{14740}yang, run a c-central line-- sorry.
{14770}{14849}damn day care center pages me|every time he gets a runny nose.
{14853}{14882}O'malley, go find out what they want.
{14886}{14920}I need bailey focused on tapley.
{14924}{14940}Go to the day care center?
{14944}{15003}Quickly. Right man for the job.
{15071}{15121}Grey, tapley needs central line.
{15125}{15147}Do it.
{15151}{15191}I don't understand.
{15202}{15318}Take a needle, jab it into his subclavian so he can|receive medicine and not croak-- a central line.
{15322}{15395}But I--well, I've-- I've never done one. dr. Yang.
{15412}{15453}How'd it go with greta?
{15457}{15485}I haven't spoken to her yet.
{15489}{15504}You haven't spoken to her yet?
{15508}{15546}I already mixed the virus and the I.L. -2.
{15550}{15568}We only have six hours.
{15572}{15596}We're not gonna wait six hours.
{15600}{15621}We're gonna wait three hours.
{15625}{15694}Derek, the guy we're waiting for doesn't exist.
{15698}{15799}I want to give her a little more time to|enjoy him, or the idea of him if nothing else.
{15803}{15859}Because once we remove the|tumor, it's all gonna disappear.
{15863}{15883}It's not real.
{15887}{15907}It's okay if it disappears.
{15911}{15943}She can go back to her life.
{15947}{15979}She was probably a lonely person.
{15983}{16013}She found a way to have love.
{16019}{16105}Of course she did because that's where|love exists, in delusional fantasies.
{16109}{16158}Real love isn't like that.
{16182}{16215}Good to know.
{16290}{16338}He punched someonenamed harrison.
{16342}{16388}You punched a child?
{16392}{16439}Apparently there was a graham cracker involved.
{16443}{16487}Over a graham cracker?!
{16493}{16520}They said they want you to talk to him.
{16529}{16563}Well, he's 14 months old.
{16567}{16650}What do they think I'm gonna do, give him a|lecture on nonviolent conflict resolution?
{16654}{16672}I really don't know.
{16676}{16701}Uh, well...
{16705}{16783}my son punches other children. Perfect.
{16788}{16882}dr. Yang--who's even more evil than|usual-- asked me to do a central line.
{16886}{16898}Okay, this is a big day.
{16902}{16939}This is the kind of day at|could change things for me.
{16943}{17013}In there is tapley, and tapley is god, right?
{17017}{17112}I'm the chief's intern. That makes me close to|god, which means I can't help you right now,
{17116}{17147}as unchristian as that may sound.
{17151}{17163}No, you're right.
{17167}{17208}No, I'll-- I'll do walter|tapley's central line myself.
{17212}{17240}So I puncture his lung? He'll get over it.
{17245}{17285}What? She wants you to do tapley's line?
{17292}{17309}I'll do it.
{17313}{17354}Yay! Yay for georgie!
{17358}{17402}Georgie saves the day.
{17407}{17466}I give you tapley, and you|pass it over to your intern?
{17470}{17502}What the hell is wrong with you?
{17506}{17578}Do y think if you, um, kiss the chief's|ass enough by taking care of tapley,
{17582}{17620}something magical's gonna happen?
{17624}{17688}Like what, you'll earn your|magical resident wings?
{17692}{17740}Oh, well, no. No.
{17745}{17774}It's not gonna happen, george.
{17779}{17798}You're stuck.
{17803}{17835}You are where you are.
{17839}{17910}You know, the only way that you'd get out of|your miserable situation is if burke were here,
{17914}{17964}because you were burke's guy.
{17968}{18017}For some reason he pitied your pathetic ass.
{18021}{18059}But he's gone now.
{18063}{18111}no wings for georgie.
{18209}{18256}Was I happy when I was with her?
{18271}{18304}Off and on.
{18308}{18351}I think I idealize it.
{18356}{18437}I mean, you wouldn't hang on to a woman|who's unavailable, unpredictabl right?
{18441}{18487}You'd move on, keep it casual.
{18491}{18520}Don't sell yourself shorT.
{18524}{18637}Allow yourself to grow with rose--|share experiences, build memories.
{18662}{18711}- Is this the new leaf? - yeah
{18718}{18747}needs work.
{18767}{18819}Oh, my god. This is gonna kill me.
{18831}{18920}nice wor you found the|subclavian on the first try.
{18924}{18961}Got yourself a good resident.
{18965}{19007}Actually, uh, sir, I'm an intern.
{19011}{19059}Uh, he's the best intern in the hospital.
{19078}{19220}O'malley, start dr. Tapley on a loading dose of|amiodarone, followed by a continuous infusion.
{19224}{19242}yes, sir.
{19246}{19304}Why the hell would he start me on amiodarone?
{19308}{19413}O'leary, would you give amiodarone to a man|who's about to have an open-heart procedure?
{19417}{19468}George, would you wait outside, please?
{19575}{19684}if you can't get the head of|cardiothoracics to do a valve replacement,
{19688}{19814}then you're not the chief I thought you were,|and this is not the facility I thought it was.
{19818}{19918}So maybe it's better for all of|us if I don't get cut open here.
{19922}{19955}Would you get these lines off me?
{19959}{20014}Would you get back in that bed?
{20087}{20126}I'll talk to her again.
{20239}{20300}You're not even gonna watch|the walter tapley surgery?
{20304}{20343}I don't want five minutes with walter taey.
{20347}{20385}I want five years.
{20389}{20459}Tapley's a star maker. That's|why the chief's a star.
{20463}{20516}Five minutes with tapley is a slap in the face.
{20520}{20563}It's like giving an alcoholic a sip of wine.
{20567}{20646}Lexie's coming over. Let's try to|keep the carnage to a minimum.
{20655}{20735}Um, can I talk to you about something?
{20759}{20797}Maybe some other time.
{20815}{20884}Uh, but-- look, you know, she hates you.
{20888}{20905}Okay?
{20909}{20996}She's not gonna say it to your face 'cause she's|too polite, but she thinks you're annoying.
{21000}{21070}And you showing up here like the good|little girl daddy didn't abandon is, like,
{21074}{21122}the worst thing that's happened to her in months.
{21126}{21179}And that's saying a lot coming from meredith grey.
{21390}{21424}It's gonna be okay.
{21430}{21467}Wanna bet?
{21552}{21586}Give me two minutes, I'll meet you|in the third floor on call room.
{21590}{21664}No, no. We're gonna sit and enjoy a meal together.
{21674}{21686}I don't get it.
{21690}{21715}I've turned over a new leaf.
{21720}{21800}From now on, if you want this,|you're gonna get this, too.
{21831}{21864}Shove over, sloan.
{21868}{21934}Torres and i are gonna share a sapphic salad.
{21938}{21973}did I miss something?
{21977}{22014}Yeah, we're lovers. Didn't you know?
{22018}{22074}It's a love that dare not speak its name.
{22087}{22145}Look me in the eye, and tell me th|you're not thinking about a threesome.
{22149}{22171}I'm not.
{22175}{22218}The old mark would, but that's no more.
{22225}{22318}Really? You're not, uh, thinking|about her and me and you.
{22322}{22359}and a video camera?
{22413}{22485}- yeah, on call room, ten minutes. - no
{22503}{22538}I am the chief of surgery.
{22542}{22580}I am not killing walter tapley.
{22584}{22615}I don't care who you are.
{22619}{22649}- Should I leave? - no
{22653}{22696}He's dying anyhow.
{22700}{22756}You'd rather see him die on my|watch than under your knife?
{22760}{22774}Yes.
{22778}{22809}- I should leave. I- said no.
{22813}{22891}Is there something going on with all the women|that when I speak, they simply ignore it?
{22895}{22912}You don't leave.
{22916}{22953}You review the file again.
{22957}{23076}And if either of you see my wife, you tell her the|polite thing to do is return a man's damn phone call.
{23161}{23275}See, a tumor in the temporal lobe can blur|the line between imagination and reality.
{23279}{23370}It's possible that andre|is part of that confusion.
{23437}{23542}She likes being the succesul sister with|a husband and kids while I'm the single,
{23546}{23636}pathetic one whhas to send|herselflowers on valentine's day.
{23640}{23709}I found someone, and she can't deal with it.
{23713}{23742}But there are no pictures of him.
{23746}{23776}You want a picture?
{23828}{23880}There.
{23884}{23947}And there, and there.
{23952}{24021}But those are drawings made|from images in your head.
{24027}{24058}I'm an artist. That's what I do.
{24062}{24091}What about the journals and the writing?
{24095}{24126}Did you do a lot of that before?
{24130}{24144}Leave her alone.
{24148}{24201}I didn't have anything to|write about before, dr. Grey.
{24205}{24284}okay, it's just that there's a symom-- it's|called hypergraphia-- it's compulsive writing.
{24288}{24310}Leave her alone.
{24314}{24363}I'm in love with a man.
{24367}{24410}I've touched him and held him.
{24414}{24460}He is not a figment of my imagination.
{24464}{24499}tell them how you met.
{24508}{24599}I was on a cruise around the greek|islands, and we had stopped at santorini,
{24603}{24660}and I was running to get back to|the ship, and my shoe fell off.
{24664}{24727}And the horn was blowing, so I|didn't wanto stop, so I left it.
{24731}{24801}That night at dinner, andre found me.
{24816}{24856}He had my shoe.
{24860}{24886}sound familiar?
{24890}{24926}- You're mocking me. - No, I'm not.
{24930}{24957}I'm ying to make you see.
{24961}{25033}dr. Shepherd, does anything|about that sound familiar?
{25065}{25109}Sounds like "cinderella.
{25121}{25158}"What else happened on the boat?
{25183}{25201}Greta?
{25205}{25257}I had my first blackouts. Andre was there.
{25261}{25346}- He carried me to-- okay, a woman|found you on the floor of the bathroom.
{25350}{25393}- Prince charming didn't carry you-- get out!
{25397}{25474}All of you, get out! This is a|stupid, stupidstupid conversation.
{25527}{25592}stupid conversation.
{25597}{25696}Hey, greta, the serum that we use to kill|the tumor, it only lasts a few hours.
{25700}{25747}So-- is it going to expire by 3:00?
{25751}{25774}No, it is not.
{25778}{25824}- dr. Shepherd-- it is not.
{25869}{25894}We can wait until 3:00.
{25898}{25990}We can't wait all day, but we can wait until 3:00.
{26129}{26174}Hey, you. How's the...
{26312}{26351}some of my best work.
{26356}{26399}Any pulling around the suture lines?
{26403}{26426}No, it's perfect.
{26430}{26489}I'm just not sure it goes with the body.
{26538}{26569}See what I mean?
{26576}{26657}Face is a head turner, but the boobs|aren't stopping anybody on the street.
{26701}{26752}You can close the gown.
{26785}{26816}It doesn't match.
{26820}{26871}It doesn't go with my face. It|doesn't go with my personality.
{26875}{26905}It's just all wrong.
{26909}{26931}Didn't you just tell me you were pregnant?
{26936}{26969}- I can't operate-- I don't need a lecture.
{26973}{27031}I just need you to finish what you started.
{27050}{27088}Can you do that?
{27224}{27252}I need to talk to you.
{27256}{27273}make an appointment.
{27277}{27321}I don't want to make an appointment|just to get my chart back.
{27325}{27364}I'd like you to get it right now.
{27368}{27410}And I would like to go to the bathroom in peace.
{27414}{27459}It seems that everody's dissatisfied here.
{27463}{27521}Where do you get off suggesting|that I'm a coward and a quitter?
{27525}{27590}Are you trying to make me feel bad|about my life so that you can fix me?
{27594}{27628}We can talk about it in therapy.
{27632}{27678}No! I don't need therapy.
{27715}{27733}- I forgive you.
{27737}{27783}Lexie-- no, I forgive you.
{27787}{27822}I forgive you for treating me like crap,
{27826}{27875}and I forgive you for letting|your friend treat me like crap.
{27879}{27924}- Lexie-- I don't know how|you get up in the morning.
{27928}{27957}I honestly don'T.
{27961}{28060}Our dad abandoned you, and your mom, by|all accounts, was the meanest person ever,
{28064}{28133}and you can't let derek love you,|and it all really, really sucks.
{28137}{28236}But ever since I knew you existed, I|had this fantasy about my big sister.
{28240}{28366}And you haveailed on every occasion to live|up to that fantasy, but I still love you,
{28370}{28431}whether you are capable of letting me or not.
{28435}{28466}So...
{28470}{28515}I forgive you.
{28565}{28607}- 2:00 work for you? - Yeah, okay.
{28611}{28673}If this man dies under my|knife, richard, so help me,
{28677}{28769}I will tell every reporter in the|land that you insisted we do this.
{28773}{28797}You will look like an idiot.
{28802}{28846}Relax. I'll be fine.
{28896}{28941}she has impeccable judgment.
{28975}{29047}And thisay be the dumbest thing I've ever done.
{29122}{29231}Ted ginsburg would've done|this, but I wanted a friend.
{29235}{29306}In case I went into the O.R. And didn't come back
{29311}{29375}I wanted an old friend to say good-bye.
{29447}{29483}I'm honored.
{29488}{29522}Don't be.
{29553}{29596}I shoulda had a wife...
{29606}{29653}and a bunch of kids...
{29676}{29777}I wouldn't have to track you down to|get someone to be at my deathbed.
{29875}{29904}stevens.
{29914}{29959}What are you treating rebecca pope for?
{29969}{30025}For a pregnancy she doesn't|have, but she thinks she does.
{30029}{30071}Doesn't one of you have science on your side?
{30075}{30125}YeS. She is acting really weird.
{30129}{30176}She wants, uh, breast enhancement surgery.
{30180}{30228}She thinks her new face doesn't match her body.
{30232}{30269}We may be looking at acute strs disorder.
{30273}{30355}It can happen when people have massive plastic|surgeries and major trauma like she did.
{30359}{30398}You look in the mirror, you|don't see the same person,
{30402}{30436}so you're not sure you are the sameerson.
{30440}{30480}It can lead to some pretty odd behavior.
{30484}{30560}Like thinking you're pregnant when you're|not and forgetting you already have a baby?
{30564}{30606}I want you to make it clear to|her that she's not pregnant.
{30610}{30680}- Then get her a psych consult,|then have psych call me. - Okay.
{30714}{30745}Here you are, chief.
{30750}{30786}Uh, no, no, read that-- read that to me.
{30790}{30837}I can't see anything on that tiny screen.
{30847}{30876}oh, no. That's a bad idea.
{30880}{30901}Speak up, o'malley.
{30905}{31021}"dear adele, eat with me.
{31025}{31125}"The love train is leaving the station,|and you know you want to taka ride"--
{31129}{31147}- "Take a ride on my love train. - o'malley.
{31200}{31270}"With all due respect, sir, I didn't|come up with the train or the station.
{31275}{31325}- Okay, give that to me. I'll|do it myself. - Yes, sir.
{31355}{31408}Hey, so, um, let me get this straight.
{31412}{31501}If I wander into an on call room,|you are not gonna follow me?
{31506}{31553}you ever think about why|you need sex all the time?
{31557}{31601}Is it replacing something?
{31605}{31644}- Or are-- I use it to clear my head.
{31668}{31701}on call room.
{31705}{31764}We can sit in there and talk,|but we're not having sex.
{31768}{31820}why? what are we gonna talk about?
{31824}{31875}At lunch, you seemed to want|to talk about threesomes.
{31879}{31920}you are so not a new man.
{31924}{32025}I mean, I guess if you had to have a threesome,|erica hahn wouldn't be a bad choice, right?
{32029}{32078}I mean, she brings that whole we're naughty, "
{32082}{32143}and we're getting sent to the|principal's office" thing to it.
{32147}{32171}Come on.
{32175}{32219}You never thought about reaching across the O.R.
{32223}{32274}Table and pulling down her mask,
{32278}{32412}ripping off her scrub cap so that you|can grab a handful of that blonde hair--
{32416}{32488}stop. Stop talking about erica hahn.
{32637}{32660}everything all right?
{32664}{32768}One of the founding fathers of|cardiothoracic surgery is on the table,
{32772}{32852}and I am about to slice open|his chest. Give me a minute.
{32912}{32936}Okay.
{32940}{32971}Scalpel.
{33026}{33071}Don't screw it up.
{33099}{33142}I'm gonna kill you.
{33182}{33278}We've got this patient, and she's got true love.
{33282}{33307}Do you wanna know why?
{33311}{33363}Because her boyfriend doesn't exist.
{33367}{33531}Derek is all broken up over her, ke it means something|that she's having an affair with a hallucination.
{33535}{33606}But derek wasn't ready to give up|on the relationship, and you were.
{33610}{33632}No, I didn't give up.
{33636}{33706}I wanted to try again, and|then he went and kissed rose.
{33710}{33764}So he's the one who messes up, not me.
{33768}{33802}But it's a relationship.
{33806}{33840}People make mistakes.
{33844}{33948}And you stand back, waiting for him to|fail so you can say, "aha! Now I quit.
{33952}{33989}" No. It wasn't working.
{33993}{34062}Was your life not working when you|let that slip out from under you?
{34066}{34128}Okay, when are you gonna stop|suggesting that I'm suicidal?
{34132}{34193}When you start acting like|somebody that wants to be alive.
{34197}{34225}- Give me my chart. - Why?
{34229}{34294}Because I'm not suicidal, and if|it says that, then it's wrong.
{34298}{34341}What happened last year|when you fell in the water?
{34345}{34387}I almost drowned. You think I did that for kicks?
{34391}{34491}You put your hand in a body cavity|that contained unexploded ordnance.
{34495}{34553}I was trying to save a patient.
{34557}{34672}Why is it that every other person in|that room had the sense to hit the deck?
{34676}{34756}You know, people run away from|this line between life and death.
{34760}{34893}You seem to stand on it and wait for a strong|wind to sway you one way or the other.
{34919}{34969}You're careless with your life.
{34973}{35020}You're not slitting your|wrists, but you're careless,
{35024}{35109}probably because your mother told you|you were a waste of space on this planet.
{35113}{35157}The problem is, you believed her.
{35161}{35251}And if you don't watch out, one of these|days, you're gonna die because of it.
{35323}{35378}Hand me my chart.
{35407}{35446}Now!
{35622}{35683}And don't ever talk about my mother again.
{35734}{35785}there's a leak. Go back on bypass now.
{35789}{35836}Bailey, take the clamps off of|the aortic and venous lines.
{35840}{35870}okay, grey, take the sucon.
{35874}{35948}The whole left atrium is torn|where that clot was adhered.
{35952}{35988}Metzenbaum scissors.
{35992}{36023}Oh, god. This was a mistake.
{36027}{36133}It was irresponsible and stupid, and I cannot|believe that I let you talk me into it.
{36137}{36202}My reputation's gonna be in the|toilet at the end of this day.
{36206}{36312}Dan slocum at mercy is gonna have a field|day with this, condescending tool that he is.
{36316}{36358}- Erica-- don't rica" me, richarD.
{36362}{36455}It's not your good name we're gonna destroy|here today, much as I wish that it was.
{36459}{36534}dr. Hahn, it's done.
{36641}{36668}No leak.
{36672}{36705}The repair is holding.
{36719}{36753}You were saying?
{37497}{37536}is that clock right?
{37551}{37589}I'm sure it is.
{37681}{37728}Maybe his plane was delayed.
{37741}{37817}His phone is off. Maybe his phone is|off because he's still on the plane.
{37854}{37887}He's coming.
{38107}{38136}here.
{38204}{38240}My head did this?
{38244}{38273}No.
{38277}{38324}Your tumor did this.
{38419}{38470}He was never there?
{38611}{38792}Oh, god. oh, god. oh, god.
{38920}{38984}How can he not be real?
{39025}{39061}I'm sorry.
{39334}{39367}oh, god.
{39532}{39579}Well, hey there, baby boy.
{39583}{39624}You managed to make it through the day, huh?
{39640}{39741}Our son has been punching other children.
{39745}{39758}Yeah, I know.
{39762}{39801}what you mean, you know?
{39805}{39831}It's happened before.
{39835}{39874}I'm dealing with it.
{39895}{39991}Wait a minute. I had to bribe the director|of the day care center to get him back in.
{39995}{40087}I had to promise to bring apple slices|and give free mammograms to the teachers.
{40091}{40150}Now why aren't you telling me what's happening?
{40166}{40196}I don't judge how you do surgery.
{40200}{40233}How about you don't judge|how I deal with the baby?
{40237}{40273}Well, obviously you didn't deal with it.
{40277}{40311}He's punching other children.
{40315}{40344}Of course he's punching people.
{40348}{40408}He used to be with me all day,|and now he's in day care so
{40412}{40464}he can spend ten minutes|with you every three hours.
{40468}{40497}Okay, so that's just making|him violent now, right?
{40503}{40556}- Yes, he's got a little-- hey, tuck.
{40562}{40619}Hey, can I, uh, take him to say hi for a minute?
{40638}{40668}Uh, yeah, sure, sure.
{40673}{40740}Yeah, you wanna go play with the office supplies?
{40811}{40898}Look, if you can't communicate|well enough to tell me--
{40902}{40938}don't lecture me, miranda bailey.
{40942}{40982}I'm not one of your students.
{40986}{41061}Now I know with all the time you spend around|here, it's hard to differentiate sometimes.
{41065}{41169}No, I spend my time here because|I'm building a life for us!
{41173}{41243}I spend my time here because I don't|have the luxury of being able to
{41247}{41313}take year off and spend it with|our child and--and knowing
{41317}{41382}that my career is gonna be there waiting|for me when I'm ready to go back.
{41386}{41402}A luxury?
{41406}{41504}So you think spending all day every day|wiping noses and chging diapers is a luxury?
{41508}{41581}No, I think it's a beautiful|thing that you get to do!
{41585}{41618}And you're taking it for granted!
{41622}{41650}- I take it for granted? - yes
{41654}{41682}I take our family for granted?
{41686}{41720}- No, I did not say-- no, you did say.
{41724}{41745}You did say!
{41749}{41806}- I work because we-- you love your work.
{41811}{41849}And I love my family, too!
{41853}{41905}- because you know I will pick up the|slack at home. - It is going to be okay.
{41909}{42015}- So who takes who for granted? - Une|george says it is going to be okay.
{42058}{42088}this used to happen when I was a kid.
{42092}{42162}I'd get a strep test, and it'd come back negative.
{42167}{42218}Look, okay, that's your uterus.
{42222}{42259}There is nothing in there.
{42263}{42308}No fetus, no sack, nothing.
{42312}{42352}But it's too early. It's tiny.
{42356}{42389}You can't see anything yet.
{42456}{42478}What the hell are you doing?
{42482}{42526}I paged you 20 minutes ago.
{42557}{42617}- Rebecca, look. - ok
{42621}{42680}this is a fetus at 6 weeks.
{42684}{42721}All right, it's a tiny spot, but it's there.
{42725}{42756}You can see it.
{42760}{42813}Look at your urus. There's nothing there.
{42818}{42847}Nothing.
{42855}{42886}Get out.
{42953}{43017}here are her labs, and there's|a chart note from dr. Sloan.
{43021}{43054}I could get a psych consult for you if you want.
{43058}{43102}Just get out!
{43184}{43217}What?
{43257}{43299}There's no baby.
{43326}{43364}I lost the baby?
{43368}{43417}No, you-- you weren't pregnant.
{43423}{43499}If you had been pregnant, your beta|H.C.G. Level would have been elevated.
{43503}{43530}It's zero.
{43534}{43585}You didn't miscarry. There never was a baby.
{43677}{43737}I can't believe I lost our baby.
{43741}{43798}Rebecca, you're not hearing me.
{43807}{43958}I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry I lost our baby.
{43985}{44032}I'm so sorry.
{44056}{44104}It's okay.
{44108}{44155}You're gonna be okay. All right?
{44216}{44256}remember, we need to stay in sync.
{44263}{44303}Ready? Go.
{44320}{44372}Good. Easy. Slow, slow. Slow down.
{44379}{44417}Right there. Right there.
{44421}{44455}Good.
{44461}{44483}her pressure's rising.
{44487}{44513}She's getting bradycardic.
{44517}{44584}Okay, so let's push 1 gram per|kilo of mannitol, 20 lasix.
{44588}{44665}See if we can avoid increased I.C.P.
{44850}{44891}is there a problem, dr. Grey?
{44943}{44984}Andre's here.
{45272}{45375}You run everywhere, or is it|just you're scared of me?
{45379}{45417}I'm just trying to stay on top of things.
{45421}{45465}Well, you're doing a fine job.
{45469}{45514}It's very impressive work.
{45598}{45664}Sir, if you wouldn't mind mentioning|to the chief that you like my work...
{45668}{45719}I was held back as an intern.
{45723}{45762}There was some personal...
{45767}{45813}stuff. I'm good.
{45819}{45871}And, uh, if you would say something to him--
{45875}{45943}uh, webber would not have|made that decision lightly.
{45968}{46089}Learning is like, um, healing,|it happens over time.
{46165}{46195}Listen..
{46203}{46246}keep running.
{46250}{46306}But not because you want to cut corners.
{46310}{46362}Because it makes you a better doctor.
{46395}{46440}you're not supposed to be talking.
{46444}{46540}O'leary and I were just, uh, marveling at|the fact that you haven't killed me yet.
{46544}{46590}Well, there's always tomorrow.
{46594}{46672}Check his post-op echo and make|sure there's no residual prolapse.
{46676}{46704}Yes, sir.
{47160}{47222}- Are you okay? - Don't ask me if I'm okay.
{47230}{47261}Okay.
{47268}{47296}you make me sick.
{47300}{47336}Have some fire.
{47340}{47362}Be unstoppable.
{47366}{47401}Be a force of nature.
{47405}{47490}Be better than anyone re, and don't|give a damn what anyone thinks.
{47494}{47574}There are no teams here, no buddies.
{47578}{47608}You're on your own.
{47612}{47652}Be on your own.
{47773}{47805}dr. Yang...
{47814}{47891}I just scrubbed in on walter|tapley's double valve replacement.
{47895}{48019}I watched dr. Hahn excise a piece of his|pericardium from, like, 3 inches away.
{48023}{48099}That's what I got to do while|you made notes in charts.
{48103}{48182}So whatever crap you want to|rain down on my head, go for it.
{48186}{48255}Because I just saw the inside|of walter tapley's heart,
{48259}{48334}and that is something that you|will never take away from me.
{48413}{48445}Yeah.
{48449}{48500}- Okay. - Okay, then.
{48654}{48677}Hey, tuck.
{48682}{48730}Here's tapley's file. The new labs are in there.
{48736}{48771}Just put it on the pile.
{48775}{48799}Tucker didn't take him?
{48803}{48850}I wanted the evening with him.
{48869}{48918}You guys get to the bottom of anything?
{48977}{49035}Why don't I take tuck for a couple hours?
{49039}{49080}You can go talk to him, go fight with him.
{49084}{49159}You're not gonna fix anything in one|day, but you can go on and keep trying.
{49341}{49372}What are you doing?
{49376}{49429}I need some of your clothes. She's|staying with me for a couple of days.
{49433}{49451}She didn't bring enough stuff.
{49455}{49504}- Did you call her husband? -|She doesn't want to talk to him.
{49508}{49545}Did you get a psych consult?
{49554}{49641}Alex, he she had a hysterical pregnancy.
{49645}{49693}- Sloan thinks she may have a|stress d-- she's fine, okay?
{49698}{49735}I can handle it. I'm gonna take care of her.
{49739}{49789}Just give me some damn girl clothes.
{49857}{49872}Here.
{50005}{50053}All right. There you go.
{50101}{50158}There, that's better, right?
{50239}{50279}There you go.
{50363}{50448}Tomorrow's board and dr. Tapley's|echo. Hahn is seeing him now.
{50453}{50503}What are you doing with bailey's child?
{50539}{50578}dr. Bailey and I are in love,
{50582}{50678}and I'll be heading back to vegas with her as|soon as my divorce from dr. Torres is final.
{50694}{50725}We need to write adele again.
{50729}{50796}She replied to my e-mail,|but all she sent was a typo.
{50800}{50838}She's no better at this than I am.
{50860}{50899}That's not a typo, sir. That's a wink.
{50903}{50950}No, that's a semicolon and close parentheses.
{50954}{50997}Turn it sideways.
{51036}{51061}Well, what the hell does this mean?
{51065}{51100}She's flirting, sir.
{51106}{51170}- that's good. - yeah
{51189}{51229}O'malley.
{51257}{51298}Good work today.
{51401}{51440}You know what that was?
{51444}{51499}That was the attaboy.
{51505}{51594}This may have been the most exhausting|day of my life, my back is killing me--
{51598}{51682}no offense-- and I haven't seen|the inside of an O.R. In...
{51704}{51782}I don't know how long, but--but I got the attaboy.
{51786}{51829}I'm turning it around.
{51833}{51901}And you're gonna get the|punching under control, right?
{51907}{52054}Oh, you and me, you know, boy, it|takes us a while, but we get there.
{52105}{52157}We reached the tumor.
{52207}{52269}But there was swelling in greta's brain.
{52284}{52472}We did an M.R.I. And it suggested that the swelling|in her brain caused a great deal of damage.
{52490}{52545}It doesn't look like she's gonna wake up.
{52616}{52654}Mr. Barret...
{52676}{52719}we're so sorry.
{52739}{52780}We should've waited.
{52806}{52847}We didn't thinK...
{52891}{52959}i didn't think you were coming.
{52994}{53083}The whole story just sounded so incredible.
{53087}{53160}Yeah. She told you about the shoe, right?
{53219}{53268}It makes us both sound crazy.
{53323}{53405}I could never get that image out of my head.
{53446}{53553}her running up the gangplank|with one shoe, wind in her hair.
{53577}{53651}Most beautiful thing I've ever en.
{53676}{53725}She might wake up, right?
{53730}{53821}I mean, it's been a fairy tale from|the start. They always wake up.
{54016}{54079}Don't wonder why people go crazy.
{54126}{54174}Wonder why they don'T.
{54470}{54532}in the face of all we can lose in a day...
{54589}{54630}in an instant...
{54761}{54808}wonder what the hell it is...
{54859}{54912}that makes us hold it together.
{55219}{55255}ladies.
{55289}{55348}He's thinking about a threesome.
{55353}{55390}- I'm not. - You are.
{55394}{55427}He has been...
{55431}{55478}all day.
{55494}{55530}Okay, fine.
{55534}{55575}I got a new leaf, not a lobotomy.
{55579}{55631}You couldn't handle e two of us.
{55635}{55704}Oh, but I could. I won't, but I could.
{55708}{55772}You wouldn't find it intimidating?
{55776}{55811}Not at all.
{56108}{56131}see?
{56135}{56178}Too much for you.
{56267}{56307}Damn it!
{56314}{56372}On call room right now.
{56764}{56791}Rose.
{56865}{56893}You, uh...
{56897}{56934}- you want to go have dinner?|- No, I'm sorry. I can'T.
{56939}{56971}Oh, come on.
{56975}{57039}Derek, we spent a night|together and then you vanish.
{57043}{57110}Now I wish that I was secure enough|to hane that without a bruised ego
{57114}{57184}- and a lot of processed sugar,|but I'm no - wait, wait, wait.
{57188}{57225}Can't we just make this easier?
{57231}{57277}I don'T...
{57295}{57370}look, I don't want-- I--see,|I've done complicated.
{57374}{57415}I don't want to do that again.
{57427}{57476}Can't this just be easy?
{57522}{57559}Fun?
{57596}{57636}We don't need that...
{57640}{57683}fairy-tale thing right now.
{57687}{57738}We just need a little happy.
{58796}{58870}my mother tried to kill|herself when I was a kid...
{58904}{58967}after the love of her life disappeared.
{59039}{59098}I never told anybody that before.
{59134}{59167}okay.
{59227}{59274}So you think I'm broken?
{59307}{59352}Fix me.
{59360}{59422}'Cause I'm no quitter.
{59460}{59484}Let's go.
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